i tired of the bullshit

right now i have a problem with my love life. i dont have a girlfriend anymore me and her broke up a couple weeks ago again. we are always off and on in how much we want to be with each other. usally the reason why we break up is because we get into arguements and we just cant stand to look at each other anymore so we say "its over" and dont really talk in that way for about 3 weeks and then out of no where we get back together and everything is back to normal. whenever me and my girlfriend end up breaking up i end up having a crush on someone else and try to talk to them. well while we are on that same subject ill tell you about the lastest problem i have gotten myself into. just a couple weeks ago i fell in love with this girl name courtney i dont know what it is about her but i just love her so much and she just can get off my mind. she says that she loves me but she she is still with the guy that is supposedly hurting her everyday , i am tired of her always saying thing and not acually doing what she says but then again its not that easy . this weekend was very fun and i wish that all weekends were that fun i enjoyed it so fun that i didnt want to leave but honestly thats every weekend that i am over there.unfoutunatly i also have a straight girl chrush on this hispanic girl named abby ahe just amazes me so much and i wish i had the courage to go up to her and just ask her if she likes girls in that way so i know if i have a chance or not. everytime i see her i just want to melt but i also do that for someone else too in a way but more for her. i want her so fucking bad but oh well i dont think it is going to happen. she raises her eye brow at me everytime i say something like she likes it and then today at lunch when i was playing around with her talking about that she and her freind were my little helpers and stuff she just made me feel so much better from the pissed off person i was in the morning after talking to courtney. when i feel back on abby and she put her arms on my sides and held me up i wanted to turn around and just tell her that i like her and ask her out on a date or somthing even know she cant really talk english. so as you can see i really do have alot of problems in my life at the moment.knowing me ill probably be back and write more on how i have been with love. probably not even until i acaully get another girlfriend or the same one that i had , i hope abby turns out to like me more then a friend cuz that would make me really happy im just hopeing that she is a sophmore or freshman so i still have a year to find out how she fells wish me luck :}...im out